Wish
do you ever wish that societal values would simply shift? do you wish that some of the things that make us "successful" or the silly things that mark our "acheivement" could be brushed aside and replaced with a simple "are you happy?" as i grow older and achieve some of the things that are supposed to prove i am successful, i find i really don't want to care...it's not that i don't care, in fact, i have been conditioned to care and therefore, am not able not to care...i am running up on the age-old realization of futility. don't get me wrong, i am not in a position of abject negativity. there are some points, and good points they are, pertaining to how and why we live our lives the way we do. i just think that the emphasis on mobility is silly in the face of what makes us happy. my happy moments get ruined by the nagging conditioning of the idea that i am not moving forward in a proper manner...that i should be doing more with myself and time is running out for me to start doing it. i used to think of myself as a survivor and i still do, but now that realization is soured with impending medeocrity. my difficulty with all of this is not anything that i just mentioned here. i am not really worried at the core of not being happy or not reaching far enough, but i wonder if i should be. you see, it's how i think about this issue and how i run myself around and how i worry about being wrong or misinformed that is the real problem...i think too much, and now i am going outside to beat up raccoons!
side note: my spellchecker is on the fritz and anyone ho knows me knows i can't spell to save my life. please pe kind to my mistakes!
posted by Ivar at 3:40 AM
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this is your age talking...late twenty/early thirties talking. Since Industrialism adolescence can last until your forties. don't worry about it, just be a successful husband and the rest will fall into place. Priorities prove your success, not your station in society.
Ditto. Thunder knows what's up.
it's the concept of "not moving forward in a proper manner" that concerns me the most [i've had similar conversations with other people]. there are a few questions that need to be asked here. what is "proper manner"? is it the same for everyone? what are you moving from and what are you moving towards and what are you moving through to get there?
it sounds like what you're getting at is that you're wondering if you should find a 'career' with clear 'advancement' routes. from a guy who just ditched an environment that provided just that, let me say that it's not all it's cracked up to be. granted, it has it's plusses, but it's not the be all end all.
and now i've written to much and have begun to ramble. time for lunch.
beans, you know tukimom is your mother-in-law...beware when you discount :)
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